November 22, 2014

Exposing Myself: Bold What's True About You

This helped to get to know myself better. I liked it. You should do one of these too.

My personality:
  • I’m loud.
  • I’m obnoxious.
  • I’m sarcastic. 
  • I’m cocky.
  • I cry easily.
  • I have a bad temper.
  • I’m easy to get along with.
  • I have more enemies than friends.
  • I’ve smoked.
  • I’ve smoked weed.
  • I drink coffee. 
  • I clean my room daily.
My appearance:
  • I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
  • I wear makeup.
  • I wear contacts.
  • I wear glasses 
  • I have braces.
  • I change my hair color often.
  • I straighten my hair often.
  • I have a piercing.
  • I have small feet.
  • I’m in a relationship now.
  • I’m single.
  • I’m crushin’.
  • I’m always scared of being hurt.
  • An ex has physically abused me at least once.
  • I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
  • I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
  • I’ve been in love more than two times.
  • I believe in love at first sight.
  • I believe lust is more important than love.

  • I have a best friend. 
  • I have at least ten friends.
  • I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
  • I’ve beaten up a friend.
  • I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend. (note: to the point we're not friends anymore and I'm glad)

  • I’ve been on a plane.
  • I’ve been on a train.
  • Someone close to me has died.
  • I’ve taken a taxi.
  • I’ve taken a city bus.
  • I’ve taken a school bus.
  • I’ve gone bungee jumping.
  • I’ve made a speech.
  • I’ve been in some sort of club.
  • I’ve won an award.
  • I’ve spent 24 Hours on the computer straight.
  • I’ve been in a physical fight. 

  • I listen to R&B.
  • I listen to country.
  • I listen to pop.
  • I listen to techno.
  • I listen to rock. 
  • I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
  • I hate the radio.
  • I download music. 
  • I buy CDs.
  • I listen to hip hop. 
  • I have a favorite group/artist.

  • I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
  • I watch soap operas daily.
  • I’m in love with Days of Our Lives.
  • I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
  • I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
  • I’ve seen and liked Americas Next Top Model. 
  • I’ve seen and liked Popular.
  • I’ve seen and liked 24.
  • I’ve seen and liked CSI.
  • I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life:
  • I get along with both of my parents. 
  • My biological parents are still together.
  • I have at least one brother.
  • I have at least one sister.
  • I have at least one step brother/sister.
  • I have at least one half brother/sister.
  • I’ve been kicked out of the house.
  • I’ve ran away from my home. 
  • I’ve sworn at my parents.
  • I’ve made my parents cry. 
  • I’ve lied to my parents.
  • I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
  • I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
  • I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
  • I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

  • I’ve been brown.
  • I’ve had streaks.
  • I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
  • I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
  • I’ve been blonde.
  • I’ve had black. 
  • I’ve been red.
  • I’ve been light brown.
  • I’ve been blue/green.
  • I’ve gotten my hair thinned. 
  • I use conditioner.
  • I’ve used silk therapy.
  • I’ve used hot oil treatments.
  • I’ve curled my hair.
  • I’ve straightened my hair.
  • I’ve ironed my hair.
  • I’ve braided my hair.
  • I’ve yelled at a teacher.
  • I’ve been suspended.
  • I’ve had an in-school suspension.
  • I’ve been sent to the principals office.
  • I’ve walked out of class.
  • I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
  • I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class. 
  • I’ve failed a test.
  • I’ve cheated on a test.
  • I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test. 
  • I’ve failed Art.
  • I’ve failed P.E.
  • I’ve failed math.
  • I’ve failed another class.
  • A teacher has called my parents. 


November 15, 2014

Relationship Goals

Hello fellas! I am sorry for taking this far too long but hey~~ I finally finished everything! The design is done! Nothing special though, but I feel like this one expresses me and my blog more accurately. Now you just need to anticipate for upcoming posts and other content J I know that I’m excited~!

As for today’s post, I want to share with you some thoughts of mine about relationships. Sadly, this won’t be about love hehe *experience level: too low*

Ever since I remember myself, I loved people and as creepy as it sounds, I still love watching how they act and behave, how they express feelings, emotions, how they communicate and how they connect with other people. I like observing everything, especially people. I always watch their body language, face expressions and eyes. These things say so much about a person, it’s insane! This is why sometimes I can predict what my friends will say or what they have in mind but don’t say out loud. Hehe makes me kind of dangerous? Be aware! Ah, this is funny~

Recently I’ve been thinking a lot about people, their behaviours and relationships between friends. For the past few months I’ve been forced to think about my future, my own path, my desire and passion for… what? That question had to be answered and because of some unexpected discoveries (a very warm and sincere thank you to myself for this accident and for leaving all the prejudice aside), I managed to find few answers which at least show me the direction now. To connect all of this, it involves people and relationships. I hope I cleared up a bit the topic for today! If not, huh, bear with me please!

First off, let’s make a point that I want a group of people in my life. You know, that all-for-one-and-one-for-all kind of team. Since I strongly believe in teamwork, having these people would let all of us move mountains! Imagine if all of us went the same direction, had similar goals and also were really good friends… Gawd, I really really like the idea of a team, crew, group, squad, you name it.

As I mentioned before, I observe so much and I made a clear image of what a perfect relationship would look like to me. Therefore, I made a list! (Yeah, I do those things =^^=)

Bye, competition –

I know this issue can ruin relationships. Particularly between girls. We do like to compete, right? Who’s prettier, who can do better, who knows this better, who has more skill… no! To be able to leave the whole competing aside and acknowledge friends’ achievements, also learn from them – this is the beauty of a relationship;

Compromise –

Letting go of categorical opinions is a huge step. I often get so annoyed when someone doesn’t even let you finish you talk and just states: “Well no, I don’t think that way”. Okay, everyone has opinions but listening to others and discussing different points of view is so teamwork-ish that it can lead to amazing ideas and decisions;

Similar goals –

I find it so beautiful when people have similar goals (field of interest remains the same but the goals can differ so so much) and they help each other! Maybe one has experience in it and can help the other, the same vice versa;

Spoken truth –

People who tell you the truth about you are the best. This way you can see your flaws followed by constructive criticism. I appreciate these this so much. Hearing things like that from people close to you make you want to improve and you simply go and start making yourself a better person. Undoubtedly, truth cannot be said without respect. Appreciate the person firstly, then tell the truth and the person will show appreciation as well;

Loyalty –

Friends who stick to you through good and bad are to die for. This kind of relationship with loyalty as strong as affection creates magic. Whenever I see this in people, it makes me really happy. I want to feel this one day, too;

Trusting each other –

I’m sad – I’ll run to you. I have anxiety – I’ll run to you. I want to let something off my mind – I’ll definitely run to you. Having someone you can pour your heart to is invaluable and heart-warming but having a few people – that’s a real bargain. Imagine those genuine midnight talks where nobody is judged and everything makes sense;

You got game? –

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH when friends don’t need explanations for their actions. When one starts acting silly and completely incomprehensible and others just join in, regardless of them understanding what’s going on! It becomes some kind of improvisation, haha. I can’t help myself – being silly as I am, I adore this really much, though no one ever understands me and I’m just doing most random things by myself;

Being mean does not always mean somebody’s mean –

Picking on people is necessary. It’s one of the ways I communicate. If I’m playfully mean to you – that means I love you. Let’s be honest, it’s entertaining to make fun of friends. Having many inside jokes, good and bad memories, knowing each other’s secrets – all of this adds up and makes the best jokes ever. Ah, being like that really enlivens the relationship and I couldn’t live with that. Being good friends means laughing it off and getting a few counterattacks every now and then;

You are cute, I am cute, we’re all cute –

I don’t know man, I like cute people. Can’t help myself here and acting overly cute is just a thing! Being cute and weird makes everything better, also referring to the point no.7;

^ All of this is great, I want people like this to step into my life but there is one thing that matters the most. 

Respect –

No genuine relationship can be made without respect. If you respect people, they respect you. Whether it’s a friend, a family member or a colleague – they all are people and they all deserve respect. I believe this really makes a difference.

Oh and I also want to work with my squad in the future;


Here it is, told everything I had in mind. Now I just have to find these people, haha! Setting jokes aside, this may sound like I want too much. I agree, nobody’s perfect and some of my friends can think I don’t appreciate them because they don’t have certain traits. No worries, I extremely appreciate my friends, even if I’m not able to show it. I cannot change them and even if sometimes I want, I won’t try to do that. You cannot change other people unless they want to change themselves – then you can just offer your help. That’s why I’m trying to change myself to someone who does everything that I stated above. I’m aiming to show more love and appreciation~

Being completely honest, right now I don’t feel the support from them and I’m totally fine with that. I know my friends have their own problems and worries and I’d absolutely love to help each one of them to cope with their obstacles. I’m also aware that I need attention and after knowing myself better, I can finally admit it. I know I’m not the most important person in the world but I’m quite important to myself. Whenever I get anxious (and recently this became a huge problem), all I want is to let it out somewhere but then again the expectations for getting enough attention are too high and I end up holding everything in. Those are scary times because everything seems to be wrong and quickly falling apart. At least I have sheets of paper and a pen. They become my only friend and I wish I could put everything to words more easily.

Now that I thought of it, I should work on it. Thank you for listening.
In return, I want to listen to you so please share anything from your mind in the comments ❤

September 25, 2014

5 Tips For Moving From Your Freezing Point

Have you ever had times when you felt frozen into the ground and couldn't move? 
Well, not literallly! It's more like that time in life when you seem to be stuck in one place - not moving forward, nor back - and it is the most frustrating feeling! Am I right or am I right?

I think this is more common between artistic types of people, but I'm pretty sure every one of us at least once had this struggle.

I, myself, have this condition regularly, about once in two months. And oh bruh, it's bad. You just want to crawl in your bed (um, that's basically what always happens, actually), stare blankly at the ceiling and cannot come up with anything. The lack of inspiration is so real at those times!

I recently got past the point of freezing and I am on the cloud nine right now. I thought I would point out a few things which usually help me to get my flow and motivation back! 

1. Make Time To Relax

Maybe you're overworking or maybe you're just stressing yourself by trying to force ideas out of your brain. Whatever's the cause, take a break! Sometimes it's enough to sleep it off and sometimes it needs way more effort. I used to take at least week's time of rest to recreate my mind, body and thoughts. This leads to no. 2...

2. Take A Break To Think

Don't force anything out of yourself, but just take time to think about all that's happening. Where are you going? What do you want from yourself? What do you strive to do/create/accomplish? These questions can really help to boost your motivation as you'll once again see your goals and passions. Things often get lost in our minds because of overworking and it's healthy to constantly remind ourselves why are we doing what we're doing.
BUT avoid overthinking. It is as bad as losing motivation, only that we can control overthinking. It gets us nowhere and just gives more problems that benefits.

3. Explore AKA Find New Source(s) Of Inspiration

Sometimes these things come to you at the most unexpected time! It happened to me recently and now my newest source of inspiration has never been so powerful! Explore, check out new music, new people, new books etc. Something that could get an emotion out of you so you could feel alive again. Most importantly, give everything a chance. Maybe you don't like sci-fi books in general but what if that one particular sci-fi book will spark something in you and change your whole outlook? I know this because it has happened to me. 

4. Trigger A Change

If you froze, there's a possibility you need some changes. Nothing drastic (if you feel the need, go drastic!). I think that sometimes we lose the confidence because we're so used to the process and it gets boring. What can be done about this? Well, anything you can come up with! Maybe change your workplace a bit, add something new to your style, change your hairstyle, take a different route to school/work. Just change something!

5. Move Forward

Paulo Coelho once said - "When in doubt, take the next small step" and this is one of my favorite wall-worthy quotes of all time. And it actually works. Even the smallest step, like writing a title for a new chapter, drawing the first line on a sheet of paper or writing down the stupidest idea, counts. Every action has a reaction and that reaction will probably be a new wave of passion. There's nothing more exciting than getting back to activities you love and believe in. 

These methods work for me personally, but everyone is different, so it might not work for you. 
I still strongly suggest trying them out yourself, though!

Also, do you have your own methods? It's be so cool if you shared your experience because I want to know!

Hope you enjoyed.
↯See ya soon!✌

September 24, 2014

ME + PHOTO Challenge | Day 15 & 16

Heyyy, so guess what? 

My newest baby - super cool laptop with windows 8 which I used to hate btw - was taken away from me! It hasn't even been two weeks that I had it! Now it's somewhere on the way to suppliers to be fixed. Can you believe that it had a spoilage? I am so mad at the shop, honestly.

Can't wait to get it back! Fell inlove with the newest Windows and completely changed my mind about them. It's funny how we have these preconceptions, huh?

Okay, let's get into the challenges now!


This is an easy one! BUT I won't reveal it hehe. No but for reals, it's a new discovery of mine and I cannot have enough of it. It's on my music player, on my phone, on my computer... I spent 70% of my YouTube time watching them and getting inspired every.single.time. My friends probably think that I'm nuts but hey, I've never been this happy before!

I truly hope that one day you'll find something that will change you, inspire you and fill you with joy. And if you have already found it, I feel so happy for you!



I regret just one thing - not trying hard enough to get to know one person, who already left school last year. It was an interesting person and I am just so stupid for being scared. Now it's over, I forgot it but that small regret still sits somewhere in me. Though I try to get rid of regrets as they're not healthy at all! Still, there's this feeling that tells "but everything could be different..."


A really really good habit is to enjoy the small things in life! See good everyday, look around and find beauty in your surroundings! You won't believe how many fantastic things happen every day without your notice.

Also a super good habit is to eat breakfast. Sounds weird probably but I always scold my friends for not having breakfast. Even if you're not hungry in the mornings, you should have at least one bite of something.

On the end note... are you all?
Maybe something good happened? Tell me in the comments!

↯See ya soon!✌

September 18, 2014

Quick Photoshoot | First Graphic Project


First off, I upgraded my camera with two new lenses! One is Canon 55-250 mm f/4-5.6 and the other goes for 75-300 mm f/4-5.6. I've never had zoom lenses before, nor I had known anything about lenses at all. Then I did some research and immediately wanted to give them a try! So I asked my good friend to pose for me as I try to play with the new toys. I took the 55-250 mm lens with me, for the first try. 

(I gotta confess, editing these was such a pain in the booty)

Thanks to my good friend AgnÄ—! Hopefully she'll pose for me in the future because I find her really beautiful and she can give a good stare, haha.

As for the project, it was my brother's birthday on the 2nd of September and I had the last minute idea to make him a drawing! Kinda 'logo-look-alike' but not exactly. It's supposed to 'represent' his online nickname. Well, you'll see, I cannot explain it that well.

I want to mention that I just started with all the from-scratch photoshop projects, so this took me a while (as it was a spontaneous decision, I had to work real quick).

Here's the finished picture straight form PS:

Here's the final result, officially worn by the owner!

I am pretty happy with the result! Now I just need to practice a lot and hopefully get into Illustrator soon??? (I wish)

Anyway, that's it for today! I'll probably shoot my girls on Saturday, so there will be brand new pictures and lots of editing. Yayy... YAYYY!!!

↯See ya soon!✌